Our Song...

     My first semester in the MSW program was horrific to say the least. Massive amounts of papers anywhere from 10-25 pgs long, teachers whose styles of thinking and communicating were world's apart from my own, tests that I would study for for 2 days straight and then get a C on it. All of that while working 40 hrs a week. As most know Tom was, at that point, just my really good friend who wanted to be more but that I said I didn't have the time to commit to. Somehow, with a lot of praying and the good grace of professors I made it through that semester.
     My second semester in the MSW program was considerably lighter. I was still working 40 hrs a week but the coursework wasn't as horrendous. I was feeling a lot better about life. Early on in the semester Tom asked me what my feelings were about him and I true to my scaredy cat self told him that I still didn't feel like I was in a place where I could make a commitment. In all reality, I was scared, scared of losing my best friend, scared of opening myself up to potentially getting hurt again. He took it good naturedly and we remained friends. One night, I was working a graveyard shift at work and was puttering around on facebook when I noticed that Tom had posted a link to a song called  Let It Be Me by Ray Lamontagne. The song is about someone pleading that when their significant other/friend/ whatever feels like they have no more hope, when they feel like every door is being slammed in their face, when they feel like they can't go on anymore and they need a friend that that friend can be them. I listened to that song and immediately thought of my first semester in the MSW program. I thought of how many times that semester I wanted to give up and call it quits. And I thought of what helped me get through it...it was Tom. And now we are happily married.